The Extra Second

It's the year 2006!!! Yet another 525, 600 minutes had trickled away so fast! And just like that, another 31,536,000 seconds had become memories. Year 2005 had given us an extra second because of the slowing down of the Earth's rotation on its axis. Yeah, like its a big deal. What, after all, can one accomplish in a single second? If you are not the Flash, nothing! It's a wink of an eye, a batting of an eyebrow, an inhalation or exhalation, click of the fingers, a heartbeat!

A single second cannot afford you rest. It cannot buy you enough time to finish a report, or help you make a decision. Darn, it even isn't useful to a stressful day of Jack Bauer! A second is expendible. It is useless.

Useless, unless of course, you're in a race, where every single second counts. But most of us are not in a race. At least I know I am not.

I have been feeling out of it lately. Wasn't interested in joining the rat race, and yet, I often feel I am in one, especially now. Looking back at 2005 and what it had offered me, I can say that the prevaiing feeling inside of me is fatigue. I have many things to be thankful for in the past year, don't get me wrong. It was last year that I got the courage to quit my job after having worked there for seven years. Boredom is my main reason for leaving. I needed room to grow, to learn.

I was lucky enough to land a job as Project Director in a marketing research firm. It is, for all intents and purposes is a promotion. My five month staty so far has presented me with lots of challenges, I must admit. Challenges, which had always kept me on my toes. There are days that I feel totally inadequate. There are times when I felt I was way over my head. At least boredom is no longer my beef.

The truth is, I don't know if I am meant to be in this job. There has been some frustrations in my work. But doesn't every work have its own dissatisfiers? I am not sure if I fit in a nine to five job. Since I was in school, I had always thought that I wanted to write. I had dreamt of becoming a novelist, a screenplaywright. But because of all the work (and studies) that I did and still doing, I haven't really gotten my hands dirty and actually write.

The plan for the year 2006 is to continue my job as Project Director. I hope to find the heart to continue. It is just the second day of the new year and I am not yet in the mood to go back to work. No, I do not have a a Type A Personality, which I think, to some degree, is required in the type of job that I do. Just the same, I hope to work and give my best in my job, while saving money at the side.

I am aware that I might tire easily of the job that I do, so the saving bit is as urgent as ever. I plan to put up some business after, just to tide me over from day to day. Hopefully, I can save enough to keep me comfortable as I write the next big thing in literature or movies.

So, in a nutshell, that's my plan. I hope to do a Tom Clancy or better yet, a J. K. Rowling! And what am gonna do with my extra second? Who cares? I already spent it!